missing mith

today would have been jack's great-nana's birthday. although it's her second birthday to pass since we lost her, somehow it seems i feel it more accutely with jack in the world. it's such a great regret of mine that she never met jack. i never even got to tell her that he was on his way ... but i'm pretty sure she knows anyway.

i often imagine what a kick she would get out of jack. i'm sure she would dote on him endlessly. she always had a weakness for a good-looking guy. and i know she would have been tickled that his name is jack, even though he's not named for either one of her great loves.

so, jack will go on about his day as usual -- playing, laughing, eating, trying to walk -- and he won't even realize that which i am sure of ... that she is looking down on him and smiling at her handsome great grandson.